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...An offering of words...thoughts...feelings...

...A plethora of emotions and meaningless tirades, sometimes out of endless boredom and idled time...

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Sep. 7th, 2009 @ 02:15 pm indescribable
I am: indescribableindescribable
I am listenin' to: Piggybank-KMFDM
SO. Just when one thinks everything is finally going to settle down...shit somehow hits the fan.

I am having a rough time. My glasses broke, and I no longer have vision insurance (dr.ranjan who I work for now only offers basic medical...which is what I have with Kaiser..who does not have optical).....so I have black duct tape on them which...meh...whatever. I'm punk rawk! Anyways, I have been taking several extra shifts at my 2nd job to get the extra dough to pay full price for an eye exam (which is NOT cheap)...and as far as frames, I can get 2 pairs for $99.99 @ Vision World. So this week I have already put in 64 hours between both jobs...and it will be 72 by Tuesday. I am beat to shit.
On top of that...my dad is in the hospital. That stupid lil bitch (I swear to God she has it coming!!!!) he has been dating has been playing major games with him..what does he expect being 47 years old and dating a 23 year old party hound who obviously has no idea about mental illness or schizophrenia for that matter???.... and he hasnt been receiving adequate psych care with his shrink at metrohealth.........he posts a picture on MySpace of a noose he made in the garage with the caption "My Resting Place...". Upon seeing this, I rush over there to find him sitting in the garage preparing to do this for real. He had been planning it for awhile, and my sister (who lives with him) being the idiot that she is was unaware of any warning signs.....which my dad usually is very obvious about. So, he agreed to admit himself.

I am feeling very stressed and overwhelmed. Thank god for my darling Charles though. He has been very supportive through this depression hump I am back in. It's crippling for me sometimes and I absolutely hate it.

On a lighter note, I am planning to go see KMFDM later this month at the House of Blues. Should be fun and interesting. A break from the monotony.
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Aug. 30th, 2009 @ 01:34 pm (no subject)
I am: contentcontent
So...things are changing for the better.

As of last week, I officially became a resident of Bedford. I am enjoying life with the new guy and the new place...with our menagerie! (4 cats, 1 dog, and a turtle). I have been also saving money so things have worked out even better....this is the first time I have not been behind in bills in a long time. It's a very liberating feeling when you are not allowing yourself to be drained completely dry..................
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Aug. 30th, 2009 @ 01:25 pm What Planet Does Your Name Come From?
Current Location: United States, Ohio, Cleveland
I am: contentcontent
Your Name Comes From Neptune
You are able to adapt to any situation, surroundings, or groups. You are highly flexible.
You tend to hang back and observe before you show your cards. Because of this, you are often seen as mysterious.

You are very intuitive and sensitive. You have a deep understanding of the world, even though the world doesn't understand you.
At times you feel like you could be psychic. You read people that well.
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Jul. 25th, 2009 @ 11:03 am lalala
Current Location: work
I am: discontentdiscontent
I am listenin' to: none at the moment
I have been quit neglecting of my blog here, but it has not been intentional. I have been keeping myself super busy...working at both of my jobs....and I am currently in the process of moving to Bedford, a suburb of Cleveland with Chuck. I am excited but also extremely on edge about this.

I let Chuck tattoo me again...I got a wonderful pirate skull and cross bones piece on my right shoulder. If anyone is interested in seeing pictures...My myspace name is StrukturalDFekt. ....and don't worry if you send me a request, I will add you.

I am going through an interesting transition. I will be 25 in a week. I am moving away and leaving behind a life that has been with me for the past 5 years....It's for the better...and it's time that I take initiative to change these things now so the shattered remnants of damage from the past five years will gradually disappear. I made some poor decisions and now it's time to continue making better ones....For far too long, I allowed myself to come last and I put others first..often overextending myself. And for what?!?!

I wish that others whom I am close to would be the same way. Especially when there are two small children involved. The children should come first, not you. You are your mother and you are responsible for their well being. Grow up and shut up.

Otherwise, I have been doing relatively well. I got myself a new car. 2005 Ford Focus. It's not bad. Just smaller than what I am used to driving.

Anyways, I hope that everyone is well. Drop me lines. I miss you all.
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Jul. 4th, 2009 @ 10:02 am last one....
I am: boredbored
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Jul. 4th, 2009 @ 09:40 am (no subject)
Current Location: work
I am: boredbored
I am listenin' to: Straight to video-MSI
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Jul. 4th, 2009 @ 09:05 am help.
I am: desperate
I am listenin' to: The Gentle Art of Making Enemies-Faith No More
If anyone on here on my nearby area knows where to get a good car cheap,
please let me know....
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Jul. 3rd, 2009 @ 03:42 pm I am so neglecting of this blog...
I am: chipperchipper
I am listenin' to: Only Killers are quiet-Slipknot
I feel so neglecting of this blog.

Anyways, a lot has been going on. I got a new full time job working as a psychiatric nurse case manager out for a private mental health agency. I do case management and help run 4 therapy groups every day. I am also back to filling in part time on the side at the group home I used to work at several years ago.

Dave and I are no more. One person can only take so much abuse from another human being. We still talk civil on occasion, but I have no interest currently of pursuing a relationship with him again. I have a new fellow who is adorable. He's a tattoo artist which is always a plus...and he's closer to my age, too. lol. Pictures are below.





Anyway, I am out of time for now. I hope that all is well with everyone. it's been awhile. Sorry, I suck. :( Drop me a line, show me some love on here people! I miss ya!
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Dec. 1st, 2008 @ 01:09 pm Spread the Stupidity.....
I am: contemplativecontemplative
Spread the Stupidity

Only in America ......do drugstores make the sick walk all the way to the back of the store to get their prescriptions while healthy people can buy cigarettes at the front.

Only in America .......do people o rder double cheeseburgers, large fries, and a diet coke.

Only in America......do banks leave both doors open and then chain the pens to the counters.

Only in America ......do we leave cars worth thousands of dollars in the driveway and put our useless junk in the garage.

Only in America ......do we buy hot dogs in packages of ten and buns in packages of eight.

Only in America ......do they have drive-up ATM machines with Braille lettering.

EVER WONDER...

Why the sun lightens our hair, but darkens our skin ?

Why women can't put on mascara with their mouth closed?

Why don't you ever see the headline 'Psychic Wins Lottery'?

Why is 'abbreviated' such a long word?

Why is it that doctors call what they do 'practice'?

Why is lemon juice made with artificial flavor, and dishwashing liquid made with real lemons?

Why is the man who invests all your money called a broker?

Why is the time of day with the slowest traffic called rush hour?

Why isn't there mouse-flavored cat food?

Why didn't Noah swat those two mosquitoes?

Why do they sterilize the needle for
lethal injections?

You know that indestructible black box that is used on airplanes? Why don't they make the whole plane out of that stuff?!

Why don't sheep shrink when it rains?

Why are they called apartments when they are all stuck together?

If con is the opposite of pro, is Congress the opposite of progress?

If flying is so safe, why do they call the airport the terminal?
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Oct. 31st, 2008 @ 12:13 pm Proof that I need a new job soon....and TRUST ME I have been looking....
Current Location: Work
I am: embarrassedembarrassed
I am listenin' to: Never wanted to dance (CombiChrist Mix)-Mindless Self Indulgence
http://www.cleveland.com/plaindealer/stories/index.ssf?/base/news/122492345586970.xml&coll=2

Check this article out! This is SOOOOO embarassing!!!
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